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December 15th, 2006

04:36 am: O.O;;;
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In September I stole arime_katashi's purse (-30 points). In November I committed genocide... Sorry about that, wingsofsilver (-5000 points). Last Sunday I invaded Iraq, broke it, and couldn't glue it back together before Mom got home (-1012 points). In October I helped chaos_wings across the street (6 points). Last week I pulled over and changed elcuro_rinyo's flat tire (15 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-6021 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!


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I stole Arime's purse?! What's Iraq and Genocide? :o Are they tasty? -.O?
But I don't want a spanking....

August 29th, 2005

05:31 pm: Concerned
I'm scared...
I haven't seen Gin for so long... it's been almost a month now.
Did something happen to him?
Or... is it my fault?
It's my fault isn't it?
I always make everyone go away...
I miss Gin...
Drake is still here, so is Tatsuya, Arime and Merl...
I've even met a nice man named Chaos...
But I still miss Gin.
I haven't told the others what happened... I'm too scared...
Maybe they'll give me that smile... tell me it's okay...
Then leave.
...what's wrong with me?

July 15th, 2005

05:23 pm: Did I do something... wrong?
I met a man named Faust and... and he... well, we did things together...
It... it felt really good, thought it hurt a little, and we were happy! Or, I was at least... I think he was too...
But when I went back to Purgatory to find the gift Drakey had gotten for me... I ran into Gin.
He was wondering about me, and Ginny has always been nice... lets me sleepover sometimes too...
But he asked if something was wrong, said I looked flushed...
So I told him I had met this guy named Faust and... well, I told him everything.
I was so scared, for a minute Gin seemed really surprised, maybe... maybe even angry...
When I asked him if he was mad... he said no, but I knew he was lying...
He just told me to have a good night, and smiled at me... but that smile was scary...
It was like... it was empty... like his face was saying one thing, but his heart was saying another.
It reminded me... so much of Luthan's smile... the last time I saw him.
I remember... standing there, surrounded by ice and stones with frost, water dripping from the ceiling...
Him standing there, Koryu and Thelayan by his side, Sou was there too... and they all seemed very sad, I didn't understand it at all...
Luthan... told me everything would be alright. Told me it was going to be okay.
And he smiled at me.
The same smile as Gin's.
I'm scared...
Because once Luthan smiled like that... after that... I never saw him again.
Is it going to happen to Gin too? Will I never see him again?
Is it... my fault?

April 7th, 2005

06:29 pm: I...made a mistake...
I met someone today...
He said his name was Stefan...and I... I made a mistake.
I wanted to be his friend, I wanted to hang around with him but... I only ended up bugging him.
I should have realized.
They may look the same, but he's not... him.
Stefan may look like Luthan... the black hair, the narrow features, but they're not the same.
I made a mistake.
I'm such a fool, I shouldn't have done that.
I'm stupid sometimes, Koryu used to say that a lot.
I think it's true.
I am stupid, I'm the stupidest person in the whole world...
It's not a wonder then... why I needed to stay so close to Luthan, without him... I'd have died a long time ago.
I'm useless.

March 6th, 2005

11:01 pm: Cold
It's so cold... but not nearly as cold as it was back then...
I still do not understand why I was frozen in that cavern, full of darkness and ice.
I never want to return, it scares me.
I want my family... my mother, my father... my brother.
I want things to be the way they were, I hate this foreign land and its ugly smells and smog.
I wish I had never come to this place, no one is like me, they are all humans, different. I live in a large forested area, but even then it is invaded by these creatures. Rocks have paved over the soil, I sleep in the trees like I always did, but these people are noisy, they bring hard clear objects they call glass and plastic, and destroy the trees and grass, my earth magic can only do so much for these withering lands.
I miss my home...
I want my brother.
I want Luthaniel.

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